Thursday, August 31, 2017

And Then Just Like That, Here It Is.....the Last Day of August

I don't know where it went; how the weeks of the last three months somehow shrank themselves into such a brief whirlwind of sunshine-filled days on the beach, hot and humid nights on the boardwalk, melting ice cream cones, and streets that turned into wavy, shimmering lines if you stared at them too long. I'm not sure why the days and nights from Memorial Day to Labor Day Weekend feel as if they've evaporated like a brief afternoon shower.....or how, during the winter and spring, that we view summer as an endless paradise of blank space rolling out in front of us, and then so quickly and quietly, it fades away.



Monday, August 28, 2017

We Deserve Better from our Health Care Professionals

I'm so angry right now. We just returned home from the walk-in clinic following three days of the other half dragging around the house lethargically, appearing possibly dehydrated and with a history of his health issues as well as parents on both sides having compromised kidney function, I thought we deserved more than to be treated like a pair of idiots. Which, since we are not, made me want to leave there and drive straight over to the hospital with which the clinic is affiliated with, and DEMAND to be seen in their emergency room because something I believe something IS wrong. But you know, the last thing you want to do when you are feeling awful is to stand up for yourself....and so we came home with nothing. No validation of the words we said; no empathy for how similar these symptoms seem to mirror a previous health issue. Not a blink of an eye when we tried to explain a specific concern, topped off by being interrupted by this so-called professional as I tried to speak......



Friday, August 4, 2017

Losing One of the Great Loves of My Life | It's Almost Three Years Later and.....

"Damn it" I muttered under my breath as the car plowed to a halt. I was in that grey zone between too-close-to-stop and dashing-through-an-obviously-red-light and the frustration of being unable to control even this aspect of the day grated on my nerves. I fumed over something else, which like so many instances before today kept appearing to be totally and completely out of my control. I was headed to the bank, with a check just written lying on the seat beside me, which displayed a date of more than two years since I'd said goodbye. Technically speaking, the numbers indicated that it was coming up on THREE years and yet despite searching high and low, far and wide and everywhere else in between, the place for me in the world that so many had mentioned, is nowhere in sight.