Monday, October 5, 2015

Damaged

I don't think people understand what it's like to have something wrong, a part of you that doesn't quite work right or is always a struggle. If they've never been there, how could they know? But have you noticed how they all say "I get it", that they hear you, that so and so has a similar issue and so of course it's totally understandable.....

But....not all defects and imperfections show visibly or jump out being obvious. Some are just silently lurking underneath the surface and if you are really really good at managing your problems then sometimes it may look as if everything is fine. So how do you explain what's broken when you can't put into words the things no one can see? And do you even WANT to try and explain? Just so people can brush it off and tell you that it's fine, you'll get over it, or look at you with that confused face of "I just don't know why you're making such a big deal out of this".....?


There are people who go through life thinking that they aren't that different....despite being damaged. THEY are the ones who don't let anything get in their way or allow their situation to define them. That's a great way to live.....I just don't know how to do it. I AM damaged. And being diagnosed, is now defining what I am....and what I am is broken.